26 January 2014

The Limited Edition Conundrum

Even now failure seems imminent
Where even a place of my own wasn't enough
The little homemade open and close signs
Be right back in 5 minutes
There had to be travel to something new

The metropolis was beyond epic
Store fronts went on for miles with no end
Rooftops appeared to block out the sun
I walked barefoot across fake marble floors
Moving steel steps that nipped at the my feet
Trying to find an end to this madness
Only to find new friends
Who spoke excitedly of old friends
They were performing nearby tonight
Their latest triumph was already upon us
Ripe for the picking since this very morning
I felt so excited yet so foolish
Why didn't I know this already

Walking into a store that dwarfed the others
Thinking of my place with cardboard signs
Isle after isle of everything you could ever need
Or for that matter hope to imagine
I found solace in my old friends new record
Limited edition 1st printing one of few
Just one whole track played in a brand new way
You had to find the right frequency to hear it
A brief moment of brilliance hidden away
I had to have it

The store was a maze but I found my way
The old store keeper had come from China
She did not look pleased to see me
Asked if I was a member
This would cost slightly more than usual
Heavy taxes and fines were incurred
My Limited Edition just quadrupled in price
Before leaving the store I promised to put it back
She accused me of attempting to steal
I lied and said that I wouldn't
Navigating the maze to fail at good intentions
Nearly at the point of redemption I lifted my shirt
Twelve inches to hide away
Faked a return gesture of compliance
Motorised eyes on me as men in uniforms walk past
I hurried to the exit
Almost free
Birthing myself onto the world I begin to run
Men in uniforms appear to multiply

Are they here for me

I run against the flow of a stream of people
Trying to get back to my small corner of the world
This Church of Capitalism
Much like my small corner
Is an illusion conjured by my mind
Much like the Limited Edition whose corners
Stabbing at the fabric of my shirt
My eyes are stirring and it's no longer there

24 January 2014

We Don't Go There Anymore

I pierced your soul without hesitation
A great spear launched through your eyes
Trying to find the fear that must reside within
But all I found was you
Smiling back at me with skin so loose
It didn't hang it slipped away like wet newspaper
A vessel too thin for you to inhabit

I wasn't ready for you to see my weakness
My folly was giving away the opportunity
Resisting the urge to cry out
You didn't advance rather you were just there
Teeth on my face scraping cheek bone
Letting up just enough to allow me to leak out

I had that day dream again
Where my fingers glide as your mind wonders
Under clothes and into the familiar unfamiliar
Softest skin already slick
Just a trace of unclaimed maturity
Leaning your head back
Exposing your neck
A tongue escapes you and toys with my ear

There is no time for day dreaming
She smiles at me and mouths the words I love you
The feeling was unnervingly warm
As my pupils expanded and wrapped over my head
Creating another warm secret place
Another womb to hide from the world

I can't picture a scenario in which I'll be ready
Until then I'll envelop myself in warmth
Feel that reassuring presence
The one that makes me feel uncomfortably good
Consider the end game option

Probably best to keep my guard up
Carry on strafing left and right
Keep things mixed up and don't forget to parry
Gather myself up from the floor when I'm done
Look into fixing this and improving that
All to some sort of end

I assume
But assumptions are for the uncommitted
The drifters that you can get swept away with
A man once told me that nothing beats death
One day I'll prove him right

I have everything and nothing to offer her
Yet I'm pretty sure that's the way she likes it
Care for the emotionally wounded
Dismiss it yet revel in the drama
Such a quaint little torture
I've developed a taste for it

Watching in awe as demons crawl through the walls
Blood thirsty and snarling in an all too obvious way
I'm enthralled at your majesty
The violence is drawing me in
Please hold me closer
Just this once

15 January 2014


You kept appearing unannounced
The apparition that was predictably unpredictable
Standing still in quiet corners
Screaming through whispers when disturbed
That blood stain that won't budge
Shocking red on dead lips
Still dead eyes that shouldn't be
Ready to give me a fright

But it wasn't you who crept up my back
Tormenting me like a monkey on my shoulder

Naked slick yellow skin
Why am I reminded of feathers
A startling white skull
Covered by a bed of fleeting black hair
A mess to frame your scowl

You were furious when I found you
Hiding in the corner of my eye
Scraping away at my back
Feeding on my fears

Suddenly it made sense
The girl with dead eyes doesn't exist
She never did
Only your callousness is real
The demon that won't leave me alone
Waiting until I'm most vulnerable
Taunting me before the sun rises
Leaping from my back into the darkness
Hovering above my closed eyes

Out of sight but still there
Until I face you